CHOOSE BETWEEN AN IMAGE OR A REALITY

oh, yes of course you need to for the people you live with. But go back and forth thinking why You need an image and not a reality that displays your own self. An image is what people are going see on the outside; good behaviors, great affection and smart character or the opposite. But the question is going to be : is your image your true inside reflection or is it what you think people want you to be?

This is a matter between you and the society. Some societies will allow you to be who you are, and some others will provoke another personality from you. Sometimes, they are not going to  point fingers at you telling you what you should do or not, but you will feel unfitting and not belonging. The pressure of comparing yourself to others will deform you and reshape you into an image because all you want is belonging where you are. But let me tell you a secret to tell the whole world: You would better lose your society, instead of losing yourself.

This is how things go wrong everyday you try to be what you think the world wants you to be cause sometimes you are wrong: You are going to forget about what you love doing, what sets your soul on fire and you will become as cold as ice because you are losing your flame. You are going to try hard to make your teachers and parents happy, to fit in your squad. You are going to feed them happiness and your heart is going to starve from the lack of your own reality. And nothing will hurt you more than the moment you realize you can not even satisfy the ones you do those things for. You will feel your heart sinking in to death when you wonder if they do the same thing for you. The lies you walk yourself through will become as clear as the blue sky on a spring morning. Maybe being who you are no matter the difference could have made you a better person.


It gets harder when you never knew who you are and you have already lost the person you pretended to be. You become nothing. Take your time and learn yourself more than the Chemistry your teacher makes you swallow.  It is a pity when you realize you know so much things at work and in class, but you know less about the person you are. Do not even dare to think of trying to construct another image, instead find the person inside of you that you will never lose again-you. Find yourself. think of what makes you feel alive and able. If you could do one thing all your life and never regret, what would you do? Dream infinitely. Find the purpose of your life and its meaning as whole. Do not wish to become someone else; wish to become a better you. Try to stay grateful for the little things life has offered you and at night think of what you want to learn and do if tomorrow would be your last day on Earth.

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A DARE TO DOUBT

A DARE TO DOUBT 

Every morning when I woke up, I closed my eyes and covered the mid of my face with the palms of my hands, and said “thank you Lord for protecting me during the night and guide me today in whatever I do.” I did this everyday, and every sunday I went to church with my mom and read Bible verses so that I could be called a Christian- a child of God. It felt really good and safe to believe that someone was out there above the clouds, watching on me, making sure I get food to eat, a bed and sheets for my sleep, and a parent to support me. But what if all those prayers and beliefs were illusions to make me feel better, protected and important? Why did I believe in all that in the first place? Was it because I knew it was true that there is a God and I had evidences and arguments to prove it? Or this was just something i was raised and taught to believe in?

I started questioning the existence of God in a Rwandan Genocide Commemoration week. I was watching genocide movies, reading testimonies and looking at pictures and something hit me at the back of my mind “ where was the Almighty when people suffered at this extent?”. I was starting to get confused day by day when I saw street kids begging on the streets and behind me there passes a BMW car with other kids sitting in and licking on huge ice cream cones. Such a difference and unfairness. Why would God choose some to be well out and others living in hardships? Let’s take a good look on the Somali girls’ genital mutilation. Why them and not us? What makes people better than the others in this world? The injustice is so obvious and thick that I wonder what God is waiting for to save his people, his children. Or else he’s just not around and all this was just an illusion to make ourselves feel protected and mattering to a King.

Why did he create people anyways, If it was for them to come to this world and suffer and others like Hitler to come and throw a World War? What was the point? Anyone is going to say at this point that everything happens for a reason. But what is the reason? That kind of statement doesn’t just work everywhere. Some of us are naturally born lucky. Yes, we get in some troubles at times, but there are some people who are incomparably suffering more than us. We are like this probably because we have great and rich parents, or we are smart and talented and people notice us, we were born in a peaceful country and at a peaceful time, we are loved and cared for, we are not handicaps and above all we have hope. We have never given anything to receive all that and neither all those people did anything to suffer that much. We might not have it all but some people barely have nothing at all. So think twice: In the bible God has done a lot of wonders, so why not now?

Look around you, everything makes sense. This is our world. People like us have done wrong and right and that is why everything is going on this way. People got the key to open and close doors in this world, people are in charge. There is no God like a human being who decides to give you life or kill you. There is no God like a Human being who helps you to get through a bad day and makes you smile or cry. There is no other God that people are praying to everyday and prayers  go unanswered. People rule the world and they make everything happen the way they do.So live, laugh, love and do good for the people close to you and those who need help. Do never look away from unfortunate people. Help the world each day in every way you can instead of being blinded by the belief that God did all those tragedies for a reason.